Graduate?

Hmm.. Today finally finish move out from hostel.. I finish my final presentation on Thursday, sigh.. the presentation.. just seems like not going well also.. When i saw everyone's work, just feel how tiny I am in Media Innovation. I just can't imagine how bad my work during the presentation, just feel kind of sad. Lecturers give marks just see the presentation, they didn't see the progress. Sigh.. other people's work.. really so amazing and great.. I can imagine what i will get for my marks.. But i had try my best.. i just hope i can get what i should deserve.. a pass is meant to me already.. Somemore, my hard disk.. corrupted at 2 days before my final presentation.. sigh.. wat a day.. so black.. all my things is not yet able to backup.. it gone.. T_T

Today, go back hostel and clear all my things to graduate. I hope i can graduate.. Just so scared of the exams.. Because not enough time to study also.. Why.. We work so hard in the beginning.. but end like this? I work so hard at alpha year, beta and gamma.. But when reach delta year, all my spirit of work just like all gone.. I relly tired and no energy to go further more.. I am so tired.. Now finally.. i graduate.. But i just feel so empty.. Seems like everything is just left me so far.. Work.. Study.. No idea for my future yet.. Sigh..

Graduate? I just hope i can overcome all this..

Thank YOU~!

13th May 2006..

Waaa... What a day!! $&#^&@^&#* Exam is coming soon.. but stil not yet touch the notes.. Final Year Project date is coming nearer and nearer.. But.. We still duno when is the date for presentation and submission.. We are just scaring for a unknown deadline... Sigh... File corrupted.. My Dearest computer sot plak.... "ba gong" Then i think of asking roommate to help me on my final year project, BUT STILL all the softwares can't install inside their pc's... WHAT A DAY!!! Sigh... Life is so hard for me.. This dearly pc.. really cause a lot of unneccesary trouble to me.. PC hang.. without a reason.. is so normal to me.. PC restart without a reason.. stil a normal thing.. just like eating rice... sigh.. But.. i still to thanks this pc lar.. already go though alot of things with me in this 4 years in Uni.. Without you, i really cant do anything.. After so long depression.. finally i see hope.. My family came to find me in cyber.. After listening my troubles about my final year project.. She decided to bring me to my brother's place to do my work.. Im so touch.. ^^ Thanks MAMA.. THanks MY BELOVED family... LOVE YOU ALL ~!

Awww.. after come to my brother house... only know they need to go "out station" @_@ home alone again.. aaaaaa... Luckily my 3d thing is able to render in their pc's.. at least got something good today.. !!!! sigh.. i just to tired of everything.. until i wan to stop study.. at the last 2 weeks.. T_T NO NO.. I MUST GAMBATTEEEE!!! TO THE END!!! I MUST GRADUATE!!! d-.-b

15th May 2006

Hmm... today... is another day of tiredness.. :(( but.. STILL i din study for my exam which is supposingly held on tomorrow 2.30 PM Cyberpreneurship.. HOW HOW HOW!!! I am still rendering my MAYA.. pity me.. My friend ask me to polish my GUN~ and buy enough bullets... 80 Questions.. buy 100 bullets ngam ngam hou.. Tomorrow go the exam hall and "TEMBAK!! " 100 bullets to tembak IN CASE i MISS!! HAHA.. wish me luck then.. :P

ANYWAY.. WISH ALL MI= Media Innovation ppl.. WISH OUR MISSION IMPOSSIBLE is able to finish on time.. sigh.. Good Luck to ALL @_____@ and WIsh myself some good luck too.. YOsH!!!! Ja~!

Blue Tuesday..

09 May, 2006, Tuesday. Hmm.. What's so special about today? Haha.. actually is nothing special about today.. :P Sigh.. Im sick.. Dont know what reason.. Feel so dizzy, so headache everyday.. When i open my final year assignment, straight i feel like sleep.. haha.. What make me so sick of it? Hmm.. Really alot alot of reasons that me feel so sick of it >.<>

Blue Tuesday.. Why i choose this as the title.. Is because this is my another favourite song title - Blue Tuesday. This should be a sad song.. but i just dunno why i like it so much.. NICE~


Blue Tuesday

Kat-tun

Yo baby, I'll love you forever
So please, please be by my side

火曜日の今の時間　
いつもの君の電話を　待ってしまう　また　
１時間　２時間過ぎて
あと５分待ってみようと　まだ思っているよ

さよならしたら
会わないし　電話もしない
本当だなんだね

Baby won't you stay with me
最後の夜の　ぬく　もりが今
まるで君のように　一歩ずつ遠ざかる

あんなに笑い　あんなに泣いて
さびしがってばかりの　君はもういないんだ


あの街も　あの海も
あの夜空も　消えてしまう

週末の約束の日
スタジアムには２つの　空席があるだろう

思い出も何も出来ない
未来を悲しむことは　もうよそうと思う

さよならだけが　永遠いなぐ2人
忘れてしまっても

Baby won't you stay with me
その横顔が　大人びた時
理由も分からない
切なさに戸惑った
最後の夜の君の呼声
今ここにいるように
たしかに　聞こえるのに

あの風も　あの雨
もあの三日月も　消えてしまう

Stay with me

見たこともない日々へ
歩き出しだる
２人がいる世界へ　
Ohh.....

Baby won't you stay with me
最後の夜の　ぬく　もりが今
まるで君のように　一歩ずつ遠ざかる

あんなに笑い　あんなに泣いて
さびしがってばかりの　君はもういないんだ

あの街も　あの海も
あの夜空も　消えてしまう

My Favourite Song..

Precious One
Kat-tun

Kanji:
Time goes by　僕らは いくつもの出会いと別れをくり返す
Here I am　誰かの 優しさに甘えて 何かを見失った

今　過ぎ去った季節を数え 1人きりの夜　何を思う?

Sometime　時になぜか 胸に迫る Loneliness
I don't want to be all alone 切なくて

Oneday　いつの日にか 見つかるさ precious one
空見上げれば ほらね ひとつの shining star

Tell me Why どうして 僕たちはこんなに愛を求めるのかな?

Ah・・・ 星空は正直だね 優しくきらめき 僕を飾る

Somewhere　どこかにいる 大切な Only one
You're not all alone anymore 1人じゃない

Someday　いつか会える 運命のsomeone you'll love
ふと気がつけば ほらね 君のそばにいる

たとえ million years 時が過ぎても
We never change No worries You'll be alright
Your precious only one　 必ず出会えるさ
One day you'll find この地球で I believe in love
ずっと

Sometime　時になぜか 胸に迫る Loneliness
I don't want be all alone 切なくて

Somewhere　どこかにいる大切な Only one
You're not all alone anymore 1人じゃない

Someday　いつか会える 運命の someone you'll love
ふと気がつけば ほらね 君のそばにいる
君がそばにいる
You'll meet your only one

Somewhere　どこかにいる大切な Only one
You're not all alone anymore 1人じゃない

Sometime　時になぜか 胸に迫る Loneliness
I don't want be all alone only one

Translation:
Time goes by We are repeating many meetings and farewells
Here I am depending on someones kindness and lost sight of something

now, I am counting the passing seasons In a night where you are only by yourself, what are you thinking?

Sometime not knowing the time the Loneliness draws nearer to [my] chestI don’t want to be all alone painfully

Oneday Oneday I'll find [my] Precious One

If you look up to the sky, look, one Shining Star

Tell me Why I wonder why we are looking for such a love

Ah the starry sky is honesty The tender glitter is decorating me

Somewhere Somewhere it exists [my] precious Only One
You’re not all alone anymore You’re not alone

Someday Someday you can meet your destined Someone you'll love
Suddenly you’ll notice, look, I’m near you

Even if Million Years pass
We never change No worries You'll be alright
Your precious only one You can meet him/her/it**
One day you’ll find [it] on this star I believe in love
for ever

Sometime not knowing the time the Loneliness draws nearer to [my] chest
I don’t want be all alone painfully

Somewhere Somewhere it exists [my] precious Only One
You’re not all alone anymore You’re not alone

Someday Someday you can meet your destined Someone you'll love
Suddenly you’ll notice, look, I’m near you

You’re near me
You'll meet your only one

Somewhere Somewhere it exists [my] precious Only One
You’re not all alone anymore You’re not alone

Sometime not knowing the time the Loneliness draws nearer to [my] chest
I don't want be all alone only one

Precious One~

Actually, what is call love? When a relationship starts, its really a precious time for both. What they do, in the other's eye, is still always the best thing. Beauty lies on the eyes of the beholder - This is really true. When a relationship start, everything is beautiful, what they do, what they say, people will not think the bad things of their love ones. But i wonder why, when a problem starts, everything in their eyes started become so bad. Even talk, also bad, whatever they do, still the worst in the other's eyes. Is this what people say, hot in the beginning but cold in the end? When you love someone, whatever they do is best but when you no longer love him/her, what he/she do will become a nightmare to you. Actually, just sit down and think back, you will realise alot of things. For you, maybe you will think the problem is a big matter. But if you relly use a clear mind to think, you will know, when a relationship have problem, time is the best way to solve it. Give each other a bit of time, maybe both of them will realise where the problem occur and solve it wisely. Why must make the problem until no way to turn back? When a relationship start, is because both got fate only can be together. Never think that relationship is just one way, a relationship need both party to maintain. Both also need to sacrifice. So, just precious the one you love, precious them. They are your precious one~